Date:11/28/2024 12:23PM

Im starting to feel like shit lately.
This is my first time having a diary 
and it feels weird writing what do i feel
or what i did today.
Im having a lot of stress and anxiety lately
from school and family

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Date:21/08/2025 12:11AM

Its been a while since i started this "diary" and
im feeling beter to be honest, i have a beautiful
"girlfriend" but she is kinda far so i stay here 
in my house, sad because i cant see her lol, BUT...
She is the most beautiful girl ive ever seen in 
my life... so im in love with her LOL.
Still dont know how to use a diary. Feels weird idk XD
im not used to but its kinda relaxing my brain while im listening
to some music.

Oh oh... and i recently buyed an accoustic guitar and i started playing it yaay.
my first song i learned is "Pretend" By AlexG >:3

And the bad news... im feeling down lately... like this week im feeling doownnn, depressed, sAAADDDD, and right
know im just contemplating suicide??? like... why??? im happy (i think so) maybe is the music im hearing...
idk i dont want to be me anymore? what is happening to me? i dont like my body, i just wish to be like more 
fat or something. I hate myself, I hate my body, I hate everything, I hate everyone (except my beautiful girl, lol i love her 
so much) I hate EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING....
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