Date:11/28/2024 12:23PM Im starting to feel like shit lately. This is my first time having a diary and it feels weird writing what do i feel or what i did today. Im having a lot of stress and anxiety lately from school and family ?????????? ??
Date:21/08/2025 12:11AM Its been a while since i started this "diary" and im feeling beter to be honest, i have a beautiful "girlfriend" but she is kinda far so i stay here in my house, sad because i cant see her lol, BUT... She is the most beautiful girl ive ever seen in my life... so im in love with her LOL. Still dont know how to use a diary. Feels weird idk XD im not used to but its kinda relaxing my brain while im listening to some music. Oh oh... and i recently buyed an accoustic guitar and i started playing it yaay. my first song i learned is "Pretend" By AlexG >:3 And the bad news... im feeling down lately... like this week im feeling doownnn, depressed, sAAADDDD, and right know im just contemplating suicide??? like... why??? im happy (i think so) maybe is the music im hearing... idk i dont want to be me anymore? what is happening to me? i dont like my body, i just wish to be like more fat or something. I hate myself, I hate my body, I hate everything, I hate everyone (except my beautiful girl, lol i love her so much) I hate EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING.... I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIE DIEDIE DIE DIEDIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIE DIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIE DIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIE DIEDIEDIEDIEDIE ?????????? ???